Ella and Power

'Feminine identity is something that I’ve consistently struggled with throughout my adult life. I’ve felt immense pressure to make a choice about the “type” of woman I want to be. I’m not allowed to be loud and foul-mouthed but also intelligent and thoughtful. I can’t wear all black one day and all pink the next. I can’t stumble off the dance floor at 3am and be at my desk 6 hours later.' 

'Depth and complexity are often traits that are considered inherently masculine, and I’ve found that women are rarely afforded the space to flourish as multifaceted human beings. The pressure to fit a mould has weighed very heavily on me at times. It’s taken me some time to be able to say to myself that any person (and particularly any man) that is intimidated by a strong woman isn’t worth a second of my time. I don’t want to water myself down.'

'Increasingly I’ve had to prioritise taking care of myself, which isn’t something I’m used to. I’m ignoring anybody that suggests that a woman who prioritises herself is “selfish” or “indulgent”. We don’t live in a world that celebrates confident women, so I feel like owning yourself and everything you like is a really rebellious act. I feel most powerful when I do what I want to do, when I want to do it. I try to enrich my life with anything and everything that makes me feel brave, strong and womanly.' 

// Ella's portraits were shot with a PentaxK1000 and Portra 400 film. No edits.

Using Format